You're Lookin' at One Lucky Chick

I think it is time for me to tell you what I believe. You may be thinking isn't that what you've been doing all along? Well, maybe it is what I've been doing all along, but I want to be crystal clear. I am in my 11th month of writing this blog and it occured to me today that someone may want to know why? Why do I spend the majority of my time thinking about this blog? Thinking, writing, drawing and talking about Apozitude. Why? Well, I'll tell you why.


I spend my time doing this because I believe that in doing so I will change someones' life. Is it possible that if I bear my heart and soul on this screen writing about my biggest challenges and my greatest victories that I might be able to have a positive affect on someones' life? The undeniable answer is YES! The reason I am so certain about this is because I AM the someone whos' life has been changed.


Since I have been writing this blog I have changed tremendously. I used to live my life for others. I didn't truely know who I was because I lost myself in doing what I thought would make other people happy. The writing of this blog has caused me to ask questions of myself that have brought clarity to my life. I didn't really realize how truely lucky I was in my life. I have the most amazing people in my life. My wife, who supports me in my quest to discover me. My mom who has provided unwavering love and faith in me. My friends who challenge me and push me to be the best me I can be. Honestly though, all of these things can be said of all of these people in my life. I am one lucky chick!!!


When I told my son about the vision I had for my life he said to me, "If there is anyone out there in the world like me, I believe you will make a great motivational speaker". He said that to me when he was about 14. I had just spoken to him about building a solid foundation to live the rest of his life upon. More recently when I started this blog, I told him this was the next step in the rest of my dream being fulfilled and he said, "I'll be watching". I responded, "I'm counting on it".


I gotta say I believe the positive affects of this blog are further reaching than just myself, and that is definitely a bonus, but I love writing and really I write for myself. I actually have been writing all my life. I wrote my first poem at age seven, and I've always kept some sort of journal or diary. However, the bonus of writing this blog is that it positively affects others, and I believe with all my being that is my purpose. The reason I decided to walk this earth was to show people that they have a choice. I know this is my purpose, because not only have I written about it 5 days a week for the last 11 months, but I live it everyday of my life.

I got us a 2 for 1 deal

Wanna play pretend a little bit? C'mon it'll be fun. Oh goodie, I knew you'd wanna play. OK, pretend to close your eyes and picture this in your mind as your eyes flow over the words. Picture a pristine blue sky with the perfect contrast of a green rolling grassy hillside. The hill is sparsely dotted with fruit trees and moderately dotted with wild flowers. Meadering along the base of this rich grassy hill is a wide dirt road. Beautiful, isn't it? So peacful. There's probably even a small babbling brook running along side the road.

Ok, now pretend on that dirt road you see a horse pulling a wooden wagon with big wooden wheels with a pioneer looking farmer at the reins. If you pay close attention you can hear the rhythm of thuds the horses' hooves are making against the dirt and the tiny little squeak's the wheels and wood are making as it is being pulled by the horse. I can even see the dark worn leather of the man's boots and hear the beautiful squeak of the leather harness and reins. Can you hear the trickle of the brook? Doesn't imagining all of those details of such a simple thing totally whisk you away?

As I laid out the details for you to imagine, didn't you totally forget about your to do list? That was just an added bonus, because my original point was to have you visualize the man holding a carrot out in front of the horse. Why? To prove a point and in the fun of describing what I wanted you to picture I got us a two for one deal.

The original plan was to create an image in your mind of a man and a horse on a path. The horse doesn't really know where they are headed, but he is focused on that carrot because getting that carrot is what makes him happy. He just keeps his focus on what makes him happy and he places all of his trust in guidance he receives from the man. He knows he will get a carrot, and until he does he maintains that focus.

This is what we have to do, you see. We know what we want, and we don't know exactly how we're going to get there. As we maintain our focus upon the things that make us happy, the path to our destination will be revealed as we round each corner.

The bonus was learning about following your bliss, and that is what I was doing in describing the hillside. This is exactly why writing is so fun for me because it's kinda like painting, but with words and in writing, I feel I can reach a broader audience with deeper meaning than I ever achieved with my paintings. Positively affecting others lives is my purpose. I am living my purpose and I am LOVING it. It is so fulfilling. I haven't made one red cent on this blog in the last year and that never was my intention anyway, but I have never felt more abundance in my life. Thank you Apozitude.

Yup! I'm Walkin' on Sunshine

When you are living in the realm of high vibrations everything is an opportunity. A conversation with a friend, looking at a painting, taking a shower, listening to music, laying in the sun, getting let go from a job and anything else, really everything else. Everything leads to something else and it all depends on your perception and how you choose to live. Deliberately or accidentally?

When you chose to live deliberately, and are mindful of feeling good, no matter what you are doing, saying, experiencing or reading, you are in the realm of high vibrations and everything is golden. All the right people cross your path at just the right time. All the answers to all your questions just pop right into your head. It's like you're walking on sunshine and every snap of your fingers seemingly drops the perfect piece of your puzzle right out of the sky and lands in the perfect place.

You don't have to believe me, but you are welcome to observe the reality of this truth in my life. When you are ready you will choose to live deliberately.

Look! I'm turned on!

I have to ask you a question, and you have permission to answer however you'd like. I don't even need to know your answer. This question really is for you. Have you ever, in your life, walked into an unfamiliar room or building and asked yourself, "Hey where's the dark switch"? Just think about that for a minute.


Now, I don't know for certain, because some of you are pretty persnickety, but I am willing to bet my clarity that not one of you has asked where the dark switch was. EVEN if you wanted it to be dark, you still look for the light switch, right? Ok, so what's the point Zamudio?


The point is we are always searching for the light. We don't stand in a dark room and pout, so why would we stand in a dark mood and pout? Be your own light switch.

The Good Stuff

Man oh man!!! The song Cherish, by Kool and the Gang sure does take me back to a much more confusing time in my life. All I have to say is, Whew!!!! I am glad, oh so glad to be in the clarity of the now. 1985 was a totally lost time for me. I had no idea who I was or how I would ever be able to live a happy life. All I ever wanted was to be able to love who I loved.

Cherish the love, cherish the life. I guess I sang it enough back then that I finally got it, because I sure do cherish all the wonderful things in my life. I know I've referenced this song in a past blog, but it is just so perfect for this time in my life.

Do you know why? Well, I will tell you. It's because I got all the good stuff flowing to me right now. I have NEVER been so happy in all my life.

All it is, plain and simple, is paying attention to how I feel. I care so much about being happy that if something displeasing enters my realm of consciousness I simply divert my attention away fom the displeasing thing. I have no control and I mean absolutely zero control over anything outside of myself. The one and only thing I can control is me, my reactions, my emotions and my sense of peace and happiness. Therefore, I will do everything in my power to ensure that I am happy.

Unfolding a Dream

A couple weeks ago I launched into a rampage of appreciation because I realized I now have 4 days out of the week (that's the majority) that I have the freedom to get up and live my dream. I don't have to be into my part time job as a office manager in a dental office until 10am on Wednesdays now, due to a change in our schedule. Therefore, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday I can get up and live my dream as a writer and blossoming inspirational speaker.

This realization was another beginning point in the unfolding of my dream coming true. Little by little my true path is rising to the surface of my reality. The more I feel it happening the more I see it happening. I have been flying high and in such a great mood that I believe I can be, do and have anything I desire. My life just keeps getting better and better, and the reason I am writing about it is because I'd like to share this awesomeness with as many people as possible.

Doesn't it make sense that if you have found a way to be happy and live your life in a way that you've always dreamed, that you'd share that amazing discovery with everyone you knew? Wouldn't you want everyone around you to be feeling this love for life too. The only thing is, everyone has free will and the freedom to make their own choice, so even though people know about a way to make a better way for themselves, they may not choose to put forth the effort.

In the past I found it difficult to understand why someone would go about life a hard way when an easier way was viable. I am beginning to understand that it simply does not matter why someone else goes about life the hard way. It doesn't matter because there is nothing I can do to change the way someone else lives their life. The ONLY thing I can do is LIVE MY LIFE the way I want to and that is with a smile on my face and joy in my heart regardless of the external circumstances. I choose to focus on the positive and that creates more positive. Everything is always working out.

Fabudio Moodio

A friend of mine sent me an e-mail the other day that read, Angel Zamudio how's your moodio? All I could think to reply was, Fabudio. So, in a nut shell, Angel Zamudio is in a fabudio moodio. HA HA HA HA HA

Maybe Angel Zamudio IS a nut, not IN a nut shell. Oh well, I am having a grand ole time so, who cares.

IMO, They're ALL Love Songs

I kinda have a funny way of listening to songs. I only pay attention to the lyrics that I like. I could be listening to a very sad break up song and all I hear is the "how much I love you" parts. I don't even pay attention to the "you're gonna miss my love" parts.

Sometimes the way I sing love songs or think about them is very different than what they are intended, but I like the way I take a Richard Marx song and turn it into a spiritual awakening. The song Hold On To The Nights is very powerful to me, because when he sings the line, "I am helplessly aware that the person I've been searching for is right there", in my mind I am singing to a reflection of myself in the mirror.

It kinda seems like this may be perceived as a little self absorbed to sing to myself that I am the person I've always been looking for, but really it's not. I mean aren't we all on an endless journey of self discovery? Every time we grow or expand our awareness and our point of attraction changes. So, really, it only makes sense, that the person you are always searching for is right there in the mirror.

You're the one that has all the right answers for yourself anyway. Who else is going to know better what feels right for you? Only you. Start asking yourself some questions and be easy with yourself if you don't know the answers yet. Focus on something fun and all of your answers will be revealed. Soon you'll realize that everything is always working out.

The Deliciousness of Life Surrounds Me

There is a desire that keeps popping up all throughout history and that desire is to have a time machine. People always want to go back to something that was amazing for them and relive it again or they want to jump into the future and live in a moment they are conjuring up in their minds. Then there's the idea of going back in time and righting a perceived wrong. It's all kinda convoluted really, because none of this is possible. Really though, if you think about it, our imagination is kinda like a time machine, don't you think?

I know that for me there are certain songs that can totally transport me to a moment in the past, but you know what? There really is no going back. You can relive a moment in your life in your mind, but nothing is more real than this red hot minute. There is absolutely nothing you can do to bring the past to your present. Things have changed. You have changed. If you took your right now self back in time it would not be the same because your perspective has changed. You cannot make up for lost time. You cannot force bonding or meaning into something new that doesn't have experience to support the feelings of a bond or meaning. I cannot imagine my past and fill it with siblings, but what I can do is focus my attention on my here and now upon the relationships that feel like siblings in my now. I am so grateful for my relationships with cousins and friends that feel like what I imagine having a sibling would feel like.

I am grateful for the love I have in my life. I am pleased with my relationships. I am happy to be me and I feel like I have finally come to terms with the circumstances of my life and I am happy, really happy with what I have and I am eager for more happy moments to unravel. I love my peaceful moments. I love my quiet time with myself. I love my writing time, drawing time, creative time, social time, laughing time, working time, all the sweet special moments with my adorable wife, tender moments with my dog, conversations with my best friend, cuddle time with babies, laughing with my mom, sharing life experiences with my son and the deliciousness just keeps unfolding.

Who's Training Who?

When we were at the beach a couple weekends ago, there was a family with two dogs staying in the house next to ours. Every morning we were there we would watch the people take one dog at a time and tether them to two different stakes in the ground. They had plenty of room on the tie downs to walk around and find sunny or shady places in the yard to lay down. Neither of our yards had any fence, so when we were outside with Waffles these two dogs could see us and would begin barking.

We observed right away that when the dogs began barking, their people would come out and take them in if they were being persistant with their barking. One time we were in the house and obseved the dogs. We watched as the dogs began to bark when people were walking by to get down to the beach. We saw the dogs bark several times and then they would stop for a moment and turn their heads and look towards the house, wait for a moment and if nobody showed up they'd turn their focus back to the walkers and begin barking again. Repeatedly, they would go through this routine of barking and checking to see if someone was coming out to let them in.

Until, they didn't have to anymore because eventually, it worked. Keri and I smiled at each other and she said to me, "Who's trained who here?"

Dreaming of a cheeseburger,...

Driving home from taking Keri to work several weeks ago, I drove past a person standing on the corner at the light holding up a sign that read, "Dreamimg of a cheeseburger". Seeing my fellow human on the corner holding such a sign created a flash of sadness in me for him.

I thought to myself how sad it was that he was setting his sights so low. It seems he didn't know any better than to dream of something more. In a universe where you can be, do, or have anything you can desire, this person chose to dream of a cheeseburger?

As I've been stumbling around in my mind with how to lay out the words of this message, I was revisiting the situation and it occured to me that it might be a better idea to simply allow this person to be and not judge him on a single slice of his life. The possibilities are endless as to why he was standing there proclaiming to be dreaming of a cheesebuger. Perhaps it was an experiment,... Maybe a dare,... Maybe it was just that kinda day,... He just felt like stepping out there to see what would happen.

Mostly when I see people on the streets asking for hand outs in all their very clever ways, I offer them a silent blessing. I walk past or drive past and tip my head a bit and I say in my mind, Blessings to you. It makes me feel better to know I have given them something that doesn't create conflict in my being. I have handed out money before and I sometimes wonder what is this money really going towards? I've offered a sandwich one time and it was declined.

I decided I didn't want to create an opportunity for myself to feel bad for offering assistance and that is when I decided silent blessings were the answer. What would you be willing to really put yourself out there for? I mean if you could stand in front of all the right people at the perfect time and you could hold up a sign of a desired possession or circumstance what would your sign read?

Let the Tweet speak for it's self

I got my back stage pass to infinite wisdom

Your all access pass is right there within reach. Find a reason to put a smile on your face, then close your eyes and really feel the joy. Think about all the aspects of the reason you have a smile on your face, say them aloud even. Bask in the glow of pure joy and maintain that feeling of elation, then hold out your hand. Even though you can't see it, TRUST you possess this all access pass and watch your life change right before your very eyes.

Selfish & Not Afraid to Admit it

I am so excited!!! I was about to say that words can not even express how excited, BUT I absolutely can express in words exactly how excited I am. I know I can, because I just did it. I just stood in my bathroom right before I got in the shower and had a great big exciting rampage of appreciation for all that I have. I am one of the luckiest people you will ever meet and do you know what? You are one of the luckiest people too. I know this because I know that all you have to do is turn your dial to the lucky frequency and BOOM!!! You're in the club!!!

I am in charge of my happiness. I am in charge of my life and I am in charge of my destiny. I want to be crystal clear on this, so I must tell you that I will be selfish about my level of happiness, because nothing feeeeels better to me than feeling happy, excited, exuberant, and completely and utterly in LOVE with my life. The only way I have found to maintain my happiness is to be selfish about it.

My happiness, my job. Your happiness, your job. I will maintain my level of loving life and to tend to my happiness as I allow you to tend to yours for two reasons. 1) I'm not willing to sacrifice my happiness and 2) is equally as important as 1, I can not make you happy. Only you can do that. It would be a colossal waste of my time. It is a waste of YOUR time to try to make anyone other than yourself happy.

I'm not saying that we can't contribute to each others happiness, because we can. All I am saying is I am happy and we can play together and make each other laugh, as long as our playing together supports my continued happiness. If it doesn't make me feel good, I'm not going to participate.

I am not kidding you. If you felt as good as I am feeling you wouldn't sacrifice it either. I choose with intention what I am tuned into and that is why I have true happiness. It is ALL because of me and what I allow.

It's just a switch

Life is so FULL of wonderful and amazing things. I believe this to be true and you know what things are always working out for me. I discovered another trick and just as simple as the previous trick I shared with you, it is as easy as 1, 2, 3.

When you have a problem a situation that is causing you anything other than joy, peace, satisfaction or any other positive feeling you can think of then the solution can easily be found by simply focusing your attention upon something that DOES bring you joy, peace or satisfaction.

It seems counterintuitive when you are just learning about this technic. You might be thinking wait a minute, are you telling me to ignore my problems? Yes. Yes. YES. How will they ever be resolved if I ignore them? Well, that's a valid question and the answer lies within. Within what? Within you!!! You are a non-physical eternal spiritual entity and you have access to infinite knowledge and all you have to do to get that knowledge to flow into your life and resolve all your problems is to focus on good feeling things.

It's like a switch,... when you are angry, frustrated, sad, lonely, hurting or any other similar feeling thing your switch to the infinite all knowing energy is off. Why? because infinite knowledge does not sacrifice it's good feeling vibration to meet up with you on a lower feeling vibration. Raise your vibration by focusing upon things that make you feel better and you enter the realm of solutions that fall into place like magic.

A smile on your face and love in your heart is the answer to everything. I have been a witness of this in my life and I know that it is real. You don't have to believe it for it to work for me. I will take care of my vibration and I can tell you I will be selfish about it, beause I care about how I feel and I want what I want. You are welcome to do whatever it is that you think is best for you.

My apple is rotten and has a broken nail in it and I HATE IT!!!

I know that if I have heard a particular saying, it is possible you have heard it too. So, I am going to ask a question and talk about it a little bit to share and assist with some clarity. It, of course, will be your choice what you do with the information. My question to you today is, Are you going to let one rotten apple spoil the whole apple cart?

Here's a very simple example that happened to me just a few days ago. I had been doing some unpacking of some things, quite a few things really, because the office I work in just moved. In the process of unpacking and getting organized I broke a finger nail, then I bent a finger nail that caused it to crack, a little bit later I bent another one to the point of cracking and THEN I was cracking pistachios open for my snack and broke one of my thumb nails. If you are multitasking and reading and adding at the same time you are aware that as I type this I have 4 compromised nails.

So, what has my attention been focused upon? Not the majority, I can tell you that right now. The majority being the 6 nails that are intact and neatly filed. So, if the majority is bigger and is more pleasing to be focused upon, and it is. Do you agree?

Then, why do we choose to focus on the minority that is displeasing? Well, I do not know the answer to why and really the answer to why does not matter. What I do know is the solution. The solution lives in the awareness. Knowing that you are focused upon something that displeases you provides the opportunity to shift your point of focus. You have a choice.

I know I may sound like a broken record and I have said this before, but the reason I keep saying it is because it is the answer to every question you have ever had or will ever have. It is very simple. What feels better to you? Broken nails or intact neatly filed nails? neatly filed nails. What makes you feel better? Your wonderful relationship with this one or your torturous relationship with that one? Wonderful
What makes you feel better? These rotten apples or those perfectly ripe apples?

Focus on what makes you feel better and you will begin to feel better. If you find it challenging to find something positive in a particular situation, get less specific. What makes you feel better? love or hate? Love. What makes you feel better? peace or stress? Peace. The contrasting examples are endless and the answer is always so easy.

I am very grateful for my connection with an entity known as Abraham and it is through this connection that I am able to facilitate and share clarity with you. As you know, it is your choice what you do with the information provided here. What will you focus upon today?

It just keeps getting better and better

Life is so truly AWE-MAZING once you decide to accept was is and focus on what makes you feel better. Here's a PERFECT example that Keri and I experienced this week-end.

We walked our cute little in-love selves down to the local Farmer's Market/Fourth of July parade and while perusing the variety of booths at the market we discovered a beautiful display of jewelry and we were instantly and simultaneously drawn to the same exact green pendant. It was serpentine. Holy cow!!! My mind is completely blown. I just looked up the attributes of this particular stone which by the way is also known as Angel stone. I did not know that until just a moment ago when I looked it up. I am NOT kidding you!!!

Anyway, that is a bunny trail from my original intention. I will get back to that or reveal more on that later. Right now, I want to get back to this perfect example. So, we are knowing what we are wanting and we decide to purchase this beautiful green stone. We didn't know what kind of stone it was when we decided to purchase it. We got out our card to pay and the dude running the smart phone card reader was having trouble with his card reader. It was outdoors and there was a glare, his partner/girlfriend/wife (not sure) asked if she could help him and she took the phone, my card and announced that she hated this phone and this app because it never works for them. They might have to go down to Ruby's tent because she seems to be the ONLY one of them that has any success at operating the app and card reader.

Keri and I gave each other the knowing glance, because we knew as soon as she uttered those words that it was not going to work. She was very sweet to us, but was clearly very frustrated with her device.

We walked down to Ruby's tent after several failed attempts to charge our card and the gal continued on with her description of how she hated the smart phone, her service provider and the app. Guess what!!! I never worked. We knew it! We were not bothered at all by the fact that it didn't work, because that is what we expected would happen based on her announcement and fabulous description. It happened exactly as she said it would happen. We were just waiting for her to realize she was getting what she was putting energy towards receiving.

She was very sweet and apologetic. She offered to let us take the pendant without paying for it, for now, until we could get some cash. We walked down to the parade and watched for a bit and then headed to an ATM machine. We got the cash and went and paid for it. It all worked out perfectly. *Side note - on the way from the ATM to pay for the green pendant is when I was gifted the perfect piece of wood from the clay pot/succulent vendor. See blog, You know it feels so good,... It sure seems like everything is always working out for me.

You know it feels sooo good,...

I want to write a little more about clarity. Clarity is very very quickly becoming one of my favorite subjects. Wouldn't it be cool if clarity were a subject that was offered in schools? Hi Johnny what's your favorite subject in school this year? A first grader responds,... Clarity. WOW!!! There's some powerful imagery flowing through my brain right now. That is definitely subject and course of study I would support,... Let me rephrase,... Clarity is definitely a subject and course of study that I DO support and foster.

I am a student of clarity, a teacher of clarity and an observer of clarity even. I AM CLARITY. I have never felt it stronger than I am feeling it right this very second as my fingers are dancing back and forth across this keyboard and creating words on a screen that will create even more clarity as the words are scanned by all of the eyes of the people who are ready to receive the clarity.

When you are in the realm of clarity,... you know what you KNOW and you know what you WANT. When you are feeling the POWER of clarity and it is a strong flowing energy. You know,... You have felt it before. So, you know when you feel that powerfully clear feeling that you are where you are and it is the absolute perfect place for you to be. Things just seem to line up for you, as if you were sitting at an all-inclusive, 100% paid in full, buffet of all your wanted things. Yippee!!!

I announced to Keri in the car on our way to the coast this weekend that I was looking for a piece of wood. I said I am letting you know so you can keep your eye out and help me find this piece of wood. So, I described this piece of wood, I want it to be raw and natural. I want the bark to be intact. I'd like it to be big enough to have six rocks laying on top of it. I wanted it to be like slicing off a section of a log so kinda like a wooden disk with bark all the way around the outer edge.

I swear to my clarity that within 48 hours of speaking that aloud, I was walking away from a small town Farmer's Market with said piece of wood in my hand. It was gifted to me from one of the vendors who used the wood as a base for her small, seemingly, hand crafted clay pots in which she planted the cutest little succulent plants. I asked if she sold these pieces of wood and she replied simply, no. I clarified, Could I pay you for this piece of wood and she said, "Oh, no. I have this stuff laying all over the place you can have it."

Just for the sake of clarity let me state that my mantra for this whole weekend has been something we were asked at the opening of the Abraham-Hicks seminar we attended last weekend: Are you knowing what you are wanting? YES!

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Big News at Angel's house

I am totally in the groove. I feel like I just wrote one of the best blogs of my life. Yes, "Hmmm,...That's interesting" feels so right. It is amazing when you turn your cheek on negativity. I am totally loving my life and all the wonderful opportunities I am experiencing.

Last week I took Waffles in to get a CBC (complete blood check) and when I went to leave, the gal at the oncology clinic that was charging me out said, "Today will be $XX.XX" and I paused because it was more than I was expecting. Keri was told a different amount and shared with me, so I 'd know what to expect when I went to pay. I very simply said, "Oh, we were told it was going to be $ZZ.ZZ" I swear to you right here and now that there was not an ounce or even a flinch of nervousness in me. I didn't really even think about it until after I had done it. It was that easy.

In the past I would have paid whatever amount they told me, even if I knew it was wrong. I would have been real nervous about it and then go home to tell Keri and let her deal with it, BUT not today! No sir! I didn't even feel myself take a deep breath or anything I just said what I knew and as it turns out the wrong code was entered. I was about to be over charged. I am happy and amazed to report that it was nothing to me to clarify my expectation.

I LOVE GROWTH!!!! Have I said that before? It seems like I have, but let me say it again, I LOVE GROWTH!!!! I am dancing and singing with glee at how happy I am to be me right now!!!!

Let my true path be revealed. I am truely untethered and I am ready for the next big thing.

Benefits of subscription

Hi there subscribers I just want you all to know how grateful I am to all of you for reading, following and sharing. I know that some of you are Facebook friends of mine and some of you are not, so I want to let you know that one of the benefits of being a subscriber and not just a Facebook follower, is that sometimes I accidentally publish a post before I mean to, like with the one you received today entitled, "A glimpse into my perfect day". That particular blog was not even schedule to post this next week, but you the subscribers got it today and I thought, wouldn't it be cool if when that happens I just went with it and provided something special to my subscribes.

What does this mean really? Well, I will tell you. All of you that subscribe will receive these extra posts that are intended to be scheduled in the future, but somehow end up posting early, like on a Sunday or Saturday. It's a bonus you see, because I just decided that it must have happened for a reason. I don't know the reason, but I am going to trust it, because I believe nothing happens on accident. In fact, I just decided as I was writing this and sharing it with Keri that I will purposely create subscriber only posts. The people who get my blog via Facebook will still get my daily post to Facebook, but if they intentionally go out to Apozitude and login, they can see that there is a little extra content available for subscribers.

Oh, this feels so good!!!

Rewarding YOU, who read everyday because Apozitude comes directly to your inbox and I am appreciating you and your support of me supporting you with my uplifting messages and sharing myself with you.

A glimpse into my perfect day

I am loving the delicious unfolding of all that I ever desired. I am tempted to talk more about what it is exactly that I am wanting, just to emphasize and be clear, but I am knowing what I am KNOWING and what I am knowing is that it is already happening exactly the way I am wanting and I am allowing it to flow to me.

As I type this, I am sitting in a very peaceful space, on a fabulous day watching white waves of the ocean endlessly crashing upon the black rocks of the shore with the perfect back drop of the big beautiful blue sky with the most excellent accent of sheer whispers of white clouds. The foreground is lush emerald-green grass. It's a warm sunny day with a cool ocean breeze. The hypnotic sound of the endless waves crashing against the rocks soothe my nerves of their frayed edges from the stress of the past and returns them to their soft suppleness of health. My soul is basking in the heavenly glow of this perfect day.

Waffles is peacefully sleeping in a patch of sun shine beaming through the open slider. Keri is sitting in a lounge chair in front of a bay window reading her book. I am acknowledging my gratitude and expressing it with passion. All of the pieces are falling perfectly into place. I am knowing what I am wanting and it is here and now.

Oh yeah, and there's yummy beer AND a hot tub on the deck. Cheers!

Hmmm,... That's very interesting.

What an amazing realization I've had today!!!

Try to guess what I'm going to do. Guess! C'mon,... just guess. Ok, I'll tell you. Here's what I'm going to do. I am going to share this realization with you. Yes, I am because that's just the KIND of person that I AM. Before, I might just blurt out this amazing realization, but today I am going to preface it with a disclaimer and I'll explain why.

Have you ever been explaining something to someone and they respond to you repeatedly during the conversation with, "I know" or "Yes, I know,... but"? Like when you tell your friend, "Your boyfriend is mistreating you. You deserve better. You have a choice. You can draw a line in the sand" and he or she says, "I know, but if I,... blah blah blah then maybe he'll see how much I love him". This response is the perfect example of someone saying I know, but actions speak louder than words. You SAY 'I know" your actions holler out, "I have no idea what I am doing and why this KEEPS happening". The difference is "knowing" something and "living" something. Knowing is a totally different thing all together than living.

The reason I provided this example is because the amazing realization that I had today is one of those things for me. I have been knowing what I am about to share with you and I've been spouting off about it for a good long time, however I felt a huge shift in my awareness today like the knowledge sunk in deeper and with this shift I vow to myself to LIVE the realization. You're dying to know what it is, aren't you? I know, hee hee

The amazing realization I had today was this, I have been given a gift. That gift is this day. What will I do with this gift? I'll tell you what I'm going to do. I'm going to enjoy it. I am going to enjoy it no matter what the external conditions include. I know we've all heard it before, Today is a gift, that is why we call it the present. BUT in the past I knew it. Yeah yeah, I know! (dismissively)

Today I will LIVE it!!! Today and every day for the rest of my life. My day, my choice, my gift, my happiness. The totally cool thing about this is, if you are reading this right now, you have been given this gift too. Your gift, your day, your choice. What will you do with yours?

I recommend a celebration. Celebrate you! Celebrate your ability to make a choice. Celebrate your decision to celebrate. Dance around and get giddy. If you don't like it, that's ok, IT IS your choice.

Happy Fourth of July everyone!!!

TRUTH

Here's a fact that we all should really get comfortable with, there's way more that we don't know about life than what we do know.

And the sooner the better.

Destination - Tranformation

I feel like I have just experience a huge paradigm shift. Last week I was feeling stuck in some very old thought patterns that were not serving me at all and I felt desperately lonely. From where I am sitting now I can not even imagine that I ever felt those feelings, BUT I am so glad that I did and of course I can say that now becasue I am beyond it, but if I didn't experience it I couldn't be beyond it. I could not be on this other wonderful side of it and I can not believe how amazing it feels to just let go of those horrible feelings.

I carried them with me for a very long time and now they are gone. I love the idea of expanding beyond something that was troubling you because once you have gotten beyong it you never have to go back. Awareness is the most amazing thing ever.

I am KNOWING that I am untethered and I am very excited about the path that is revealing it's self before me. I am stepping into the very next huge thing for me and I have been refining my preferences for a while now and I am ready for the next bit to unfold.

Look out you're just about to witness and amazing transformation.

It's straight up Fun o'clock!!!!

The whole reason any of us are here is to have fun. If you are doing somethig that is not fun or interesting to you then by all means start doing something else.

Do somethig fun. Feel the love that is all around you. Laugh with your friends. Drink beer and eat pizza. Dance your ass off. Read your favorite books. Walk barefooted in the mud. Lay in the sun and feel the warmth on your skin. Walk with a bit of a strut because you know you got this!!! Feel all the amazing things you came here to feel. Love the ones you love. Smile at every being that crosses your path. Let people get in front of you. Give a compliment. Hug a baby. Pet a puppy. Paint a picture. Kiss your wife. Take a nap.

By the way, if it does not feeeeeel good, do something else.