I can say my numbers

Fourteen, three hundred ninety two.

What? I know, right? What am I trying to say?

Well, I will tell you. In the not so distant past (like, early last week) that was my attempt to say this number, 14,392.

Really? Yes! Really! In the past I was lparalyzed by,... numbers. Yes, math too, but very simply as well, just saying big numbers. I had only one concept of numbers and that was zero. That's kinda funny, two numbers in that last sentence.

Anyway, what's the point? The point is, it is really amazing how someone can get to be my age and not know how to do something as simple as say the cost of a car or the price of a house. I used to tell people I paid 36 for my first house back in Oklahoma in 1990. Number one: OMG!! How can anyone buy a house for 36,000? Number two: what's so weird about that? People say that kind of thing all the time right? I heard someone say they paid 550 for their most recent house and that sounds like someone knows what they are talking about, right? Only I didn't. It could have been 3,600 or 36,000. I had no clue. All I knew was it was 36, and that is how I got by not knowing how to say big numbers.

It is amazing sometimes how people have a weakness in a certain aspect of life and feel totally paralyzed by that one thing and another person can look at that particular thing and have no idea how that simple thing can be so perplexing.

So, when you encounter someone that is totally blowing your mind regarding something that is so freaking simple to YOU, take a moment to consider if there just might be something in your life that simple that trips you up every time, and then consider giving that other person the same kind of break you would appreciate when you are faced with your simple or not so simple little stumbling block.

When we can see our own vulnerability in others, we are much more accepting of their moments of paralysis. How patient are we with ourselves when dealing with our own fears? Shit! I can put up with a lot of stuff, rather than deal with uncomfortable situations, BUT I would rather transcend my moments of paralysis.

Amazing! I know, given this confession about big numbers, but I really do feel like a smart person, but then again when it comes to left and right, that's a whole other ball of wax. Yes, I've had trouble with left and right as well.

I wish you could hear my happy little songs about how, "I know my numbers, I know my numbers" and "to the right, to the right, to the right and now to the left, to the left, to the left". Both, by the way, have little dances to accompany them.

Thank you to Shanna for taking the time to teach me my numbers and to Keri for teaching me that I write with my right and THAT is always the right. I love both of you very much and would do anything I could to help either one of you,... learn your ABC's or teach you north and south, or anything else.