It was about three and a half weeks ago that Keri surprised me with the spontaneous proposal. I could not contain my happiness and overall excitement because we have been wanting to get married since 1995 and we really never thought that we would be able to in our life time. We thought that Oregon might come around in 2014 and allow same sex marriage. So, about 4 months ago we started planning a ceremony for 2015 (the year of our 20 year anniversary), so there has been a great deal of conversation on the subject lately, but to suggest that we do it now, was very exciting and honestly, after the initial excitement a little disappointing too.
Exciting, because we HAVE been wanting this for so long and were not allowed. Yes, that is what I said, Not Allowed, but now that it is legal, in selective states, we didn't want to wait a moment longer. The disappointing part was that I really wanted all the things we have been talking about over the last several months. I was torn!
I was upset and emotional. It was confusing because I was also very excited. Keri was very sweet and supportive. She offered to wait until 2015, but said just because we go up to the courthouse in Seattle, doesn't mean we won't still have the event we've been planning. She said the most important thing to her was my happiness and she didn't want me to have another wedding experience that I'd look back on and regret. She knows how important the event of a wedding is to me and despite her uncomfortable feelings regarding being the center of attention, she has agreed to step outside of her comfort zone for me. What a sweet heart she is and me, well, I have promised to hog the spotlight.
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