Not for wussies,...

OK, divine guidance I am open to receiving your message of clarity. I have been walking around in the dark with my arms extended to feel my way around and I am ready to see some light. I end up getting hurt when I walk around in the dark. I bump into things, get knocked in the shin, stub my toe, bump my head and it makes me cry. I am tired of getting hurt.

I take in a deep breath, close my eyes, let out the deep breath and take another. I open my heart and allow your clarity to flow through me. I am lost and I do not know what to do. I just read a comment on a website called praying women that read when someone feels anger it is a defense mechanism against feeling hurt and at this very moment I can totally identify with that feeling.

I wrote a scathing message to someone about 20 minutes ago with questionable intent. Will I send this message out to this person? Will this angry message benefit the situation? Will it reach the intended person and create the situation I desire? It is quite clear to me now that the answer is no, but that does not mean I know what to do. So, I am asking. I am asking for clarity and I am open to whatever message it is that I receive.

I know that a great deal of what I end up writing about is allowing others to be whatever it is they need to be, but I am confused about my feelings. It feels like allowing this person to be what it is they feel they need to be is hurting me. Damn clarity!! Just as I was typing that, divine clarity, spoke and said, It is hurting you because you are allowing it to hurt you. You can choose to let it go. It feels like when I am letting go that I am allowing someone slip through my fingers into non existence and that makes me very sad. It makes me cry. How long do I let go? Do I just let go forever?



OK, the anger is gone and has been replaced by sadness. I do not want to loose this person. The sadness hurts. It feels like my heart is breaking. I can't stop crying. What would I say to me if I was a friend of mine in this situation? I would say, Does it make you feel good to think about this? No. Is there anything regarding this subject that brings you joy? Not this particular aspect, no. Is there any aspect of this subject that brings you joy? Yes! OK. Do you like to feel this sadness? No. OK, then wipe those tears from your eyes and focus on what brings you joy. Life is too short to sit around crying about things that you can not change. It is what it is, if there is something else you can focus on that makes you feel better then I say do it!!! And do it now, before you waste one more precious second of your life feeling sad.

OK, feeling better. Thank you. You're welcome.