A couple weekends ago I ordered a salad for lunch with a vegan patty burger and a gluten free bun and strangely enough the vegan burger I ordered came with gorgonzola and bacon. Yes, cheese and bacon, two of my weaknesses. I know I could have requested the bacon and cheese be removed, but like I said before, it a weakness. It's a salty thing. After I ate that yummy deliciousness I walked home in complete and utter pain. My stomach was hurting so bad and I really wanted to remember that feeling. So, I chanted to myself the whole walk home, "This is how you feel when you eat bacon"
It kinda feels like I have a bunch of hard lessons ahead of me. I am trying to eat healthier and am doing a pretty good job, but there is a fair bit of reprogramming to do. I am retraining my brain. You might think that I would consider the items that have given me a stomach ache and cross reference them across the food scale. Like, ok, ice cream gave me a stomach ache last week, hmmm, maybe I shouldn't eat cheese cake. But I really like cheese cake and what if it doesn't have the same affect?
ANGEL!!!! What??? Is a piece of cheese cake worth a 12 hour stomach ache? Not today. That's all I can do, is take it day by day. Some days it's even a meal by meal decision. Just because I decide to eat something bad at lunch does not mean I have to throw the rest of the day in the trash. Making one mistake isn't made better by making another, what the hell, I already screwed up, mistake.
Acceptance of our imperfections and flaws empowers us to be stronger and make better choices! It is totally ok to slip, just remember to real it back in.
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