Yes, sigh, This too shall pass.

I read a post from one of my friends on Facebook last Thursday that was the perfect little string of words to very accurately describe exactly the way I was feeling. Let me share those words with you now.

Patience is giving a loving response to frustration.

I could not have read any more perfect words for myself on that day, because sometimes wonderful people drift into your life and it seems like there couldn't be a better person to fill that particular slot in your life. Then for some reason that seems like it can't make a bit of sense because they fit so perfectly, they announce their future departure. They have to go because they feel it is what is best for them.

It's can be so difficult to be supportive of someone doing what is best for them when it means they will be leaving an empty spot in my life. It doesn't feel like it's what's best for ME. How dare you live your life for your own happiness! What about me? What about making me happy? Oh yeah, that's my job. I am not living my life for them, right? and I certainly would not want to stay somewhere I didn't feel was best for me for the sake of someone else's sense of happiness.

I feel like throwing a fit though. I feel like laying on the floor kicking and crying, but that would not be very mature and it would not make matters better for me. It certainly would not help the person who is making a difficult choice. Therefore, I am opting to behave like an adult and be supportive. I am proud of people that make difficult decisions in their lives for the sake of their own well being. This is the type of person I want in my life and that is part of why it is so difficult to accept that they are leaving.

Writing this is part of the acceptance process. Breathing deep. I know that resisting immanent change will not benefit me in the least. This too shall pass.

Patience is giving a loving response to frustration. I support you doing what you feel is best for you.