Being a "Pen Freak", yes, I'm an admitted pen freak, the one thing I miss about writing this blog, is the feeling of a good pen in my hand gliding across a blank page. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE WRITING THIS BLOG!!!! I really do!!! But I do miss the smell of ink and the feel of a good medium ball point on a semi-thick stack of good paper. I love the feel of a fountain pen on good cotton paper. In either case, I love the way the paper curls up once I have filled it up with my words of passion. I love the way passion filled paper feels in my hands, as I tap several pages together on the table to straighten them up. If you know this feeling, you are probably a pen freak too.
You know who you are, you find a way to walk down the pen isle at the grocery store, you know right where a "good" paper store is, you claim pens as your own the second you write with them, you write with the pen, if you can, before you buy it, you probably have enough pens to last you two or three lifetimes and you still are on the look out for a good pen, you respect ownership of a good pen and you NEVER just walk off with one you like, BUT you are willing to ask if you can have it. Yes, I know you. You are me.
I have certain pens for certain things. Wow!!! Am I really sharing these details? Yes! Yes, I am. These are the details that make me who I am and if I keep them hidden, then how will I know that I am loved for my WHOLE self? It can be kinda scary, because it feels bare and vulnerable to put your whole self out there. Ok, maybe not this particular detail, but there are details that trigger doubt. What if I'm rejected? Well, fuck it!!! Who wants to be only a little bit themselves? I want to be my whole true self!!!!
Does that mean I have to expose my whole true self? Well, no! UNLESS, my whole true self includes being an exhibitionist. Some things ARE private, but I think it's safe to put it out there that I have a certain type of pen I like to use when I write on post cards to send to my mom. I have a different kind of pen I like to use when I write in my journal, and when I write a check, a different one. Yes, I still write checks, not very much, but I do.
One thing about being a pen freak is I think it's important to keep the art of actual letter writing alive. I love to send cards and letters. I have a ritual that includes placing a wax seal on the outside of the envelope. It makes it feel special to me. Receiving a handwritten letter in the mail these days is a rarity and then to flip over the envelope to open it and find a wax seal,...WOW!!! I hope that when anyone receives something like that from me that they feel special, because that is exactly what I am intending.
I guess it's kinda cool in a way to be a pen freak. A pen freak cares. This is who I am and I will proudly stand here with my freak flag flapping in the breeze to let it be known across the land that #1- I am a pen freak and #2 - I care! Not necessarily in that order.
Do you fly your freak flag? I know you have one, everybody does.
HAHAHA!! First off, I figured out how to comment (yippeeee!) Second of all, holy crap, I AM YOUUU!!! I love pens.... pens pens pens. Really inky ones are the best. But I also love pencils. A professor of mine used to live by this saying (which he clearly made up): "the pen is mightier than the sword, and the pencil is mightier than the pen." I think that's mostly because you can use a pencil to its last nubby end. Also, pens can freak out and ink all over your pocket. Which is not nice. Also, this particular professor had a whole theory about pencils being excellent weapons if you just knew how to wield them properly, but that's for a different blog site I think...
ReplyDeleteAnyway, the moral of the story: Pens are totally great.