I'm a girl and Keri is a girl. So, according to Keri, every time we go out, we are "technically" having a "girls night out". Therefore, Keri being, not quite as social as I am, would be satisfied with our current technical definition of girls night out. However, my idea of girls night out, involves at least one of the following: dancing, singing, adult beverages, a group of girls.
So, I find myself at a cross roads,... continue with the girls night out that Keri has been planning, which I do always enjoy, don't get me wrong, or step outside of my comfort zone and organize my own version of girls night out.
I can see a little cloud of confusion hanging out over your heads right about now. Why would I be uncomfortable planning a girls night out if that is what I want? Well, because "planning" girls night out is not what I want to do, ya see? What I want is to go out for girls night out, not plan girls night out. See the difference???
This is part of what makes my relationship with Keri so magical, she likes to plan and I like to attend. Only problem is Keri is not going to plan the kind of girls night out that I'm talking about, remember?
So, I will have to plan
it myself. I don't know why planning gives me such anxiety? That's not true, I do know. Ok, here it goes,...I get anxious because I'm afraid I'll piss someone off, some how. I know it's an irrational fear, actually, I am just saying that, I don't REALLY know that!!! The fear seems pretty real to me. It does sound good to call it irrational though, doesn't it?
Planning involves energy, research, pitching a stream of ideas, that people could reject, hoping that everything will work out for a fun time to be had by all and the more people you include the higher the chance that one of those people won't be satisfied. Big heavy sigh!!!!
I just need to do it and get over the fear. I wanna go dancing. I wanna go singing. I wanna go have drinks!!! I wanna have fun, laugh and play. Who wants to plan it for me? Haha!!! Just kidding, I am not a planner, I am an attendee. I can be a damn good co-host though,... Wink wink
Fuck it! I AM A PARTY PLANNER!!!! I am planning it and it will be fun!
You will have fun damn it!!!
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