Showing posts with label free. Show all posts
Showing posts with label free. Show all posts

Monday, December 8, 2014

Long Haired Butterfly

"Wow! Your hair is getting so long. What inspired this?" someone asked me the other day and do you know what happened next? I opened myself up and shared a little bit more of myself than I am guessing this person originally bargained for, which, if you knew me well, you certainly would not be surprised.

I am an open book and as I shared recently in my blog entitled, It's Got to Be Real, I believe most people are starving for real person to person human experiences. However, now that I've written it out again I think I can say it better. I believe, for the most part, people are starving for a real connection.

When I wrote that brief blog the other day, I wanted to elaborate a bit more on that concept, because what I find is when I share my real self with people they seem to find it refreshing and sort of gravitate to that feeling. They get drawn in to the depth of the honesty. I think it's because when I am being my true self I am connected to something larger than myself.

When I am connected to this, larger than myself entity, I share things on a deeper level than most are accustomed to hearing in a casual encounter, but just because they are not accustomed to it does not mean that it makes them uncomfortable. In fact, the majority of the time when this happens the person I am sharing with thanks me for sharing. It usually comes down to that because I realize I am sharing real, personal things and I'll say something like, "Wow, I'll bet that's more than you bargained for when you asked me that question" and then they share their gratitude with me for sharing.

This was not what I intended to write about when I opened with that, "Your hair is getting so long" comment. Often what I intend to write about is lost in the process of writing because there are so many different directions a single thought can take you and I tend to follow the passion.

The passion, in my mind is the juicy stuff, the connected stuff. The stuff that people really want to read. My intention is to be open and honest for the purpose of expanding joy. My intention is to be connected, happy and free.

I am free as a butterfly. Have you ever tried to tether a butterfly? It just doesn't work. My intention is to expand openness for the purpose of broader perspectives. We are better off for all that we let in.

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Friday, September 6, 2013

Get this rock off my chest

When I talk about my feelings of resistance it's kinda scary, because I feel very vulnerable. I always wonder, How is this going to come across? Will I be able to clearly convey my feelings? Will I be able to stay focused? I have lost myself in other people's feelings. In the past I have always wanted to make sure everyone's feelings are being considered. So I wonder, is it going to be worth the possibility of upsetting someone else?

The indecision feels like this heavy rock laying on my chest, but when I don't talk about those feelings that heavy rock stays with me. I am forcing myself to carry around this heavy burden that weighs on me and wares me out. I can not give myself or anyone else the best of me when I hang on to feelings of resistance.

I think the best of me is light, airy and fun and a big heavy rock does not sound or feel light, airy and fun.

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I love myself and I allow myself to be free and happy. I love my family and my friends and they deserve to get the best of me. The me that is happy and free.

It is my vow first to myself and then to my loved ones that I will talk about my feelings of resistance.

I am learning that it feels so much better to cast away the heavy burden of worrying about how it's going to sound or what will happen. I love learning about myself and growing.