Get this rock off my chest

When I talk about my feelings of resistance it's kinda scary, because I feel very vulnerable. I always wonder, How is this going to come across? Will I be able to clearly convey my feelings? Will I be able to stay focused? I have lost myself in other people's feelings. In the past I have always wanted to make sure everyone's feelings are being considered. So I wonder, is it going to be worth the possibility of upsetting someone else?

The indecision feels like this heavy rock laying on my chest, but when I don't talk about those feelings that heavy rock stays with me. I am forcing myself to carry around this heavy burden that weighs on me and wares me out. I can not give myself or anyone else the best of me when I hang on to feelings of resistance.

I think the best of me is light, airy and fun and a big heavy rock does not sound or feel light, airy and fun.



I love myself and I allow myself to be free and happy. I love my family and my friends and they deserve to get the best of me. The me that is happy and free.

It is my vow first to myself and then to my loved ones that I will talk about my feelings of resistance.

I am learning that it feels so much better to cast away the heavy burden of worrying about how it's going to sound or what will happen. I love learning about myself and growing.