Oh no!!! Not the F Bomb,....

Growth- whew! There is a very clear reason why there's a thing called growing pains. It hurts sometimes when you realize all the mental gymnastics you've been preforming are #1 not neccesary #2 such a waste of time and #3 fucking exhausting.

Sometimes the biggest barrier on our path is our own damn self. I am a big proponent of searching under ever rock to find whatever it is you need to find health, happiness and peace. I am ready to be ready, but I'm not quite there yet. That's the painful part. I know where I want to be and it hurts to stay where I am, but I haven't figured out how to get where I wanna be.

Right now all I know is I am ready and though I don't know HOW,................... I DO know that I CAN get there from here. Here's where the big F bomb comes into play.

FAITH

On my way here

I feel so empowered and confident when I am belting out the words of the song, On My Way Here, by Clay Aiken. It is such a powerful song for me. I literally listen to it every single day. In fact, I am listening to it on repeat right now as I am writing this blog post.

I feel like I can do anything when I am listening to the words, on my way here, where I am now, I've learned to fly, I have to want to leave the ground, I've fallen hard, but I've been loved, and in the end it all works out, my faith has conquered fear, on my way here.

It feels so amazing to feel the power of pure confidence and this song gives me that feeling. When I hear this song, I always imagine myself walking out on to a stage and I begin to give an inspirational talk with the words, I've seen the best and I've seen the worst, and I wouldn't change what I've been through. I've touched the sky, I've hit the wall, but I did what I had to, on my way here.

As I look out over a crowd of people I see that they are excited to be here, in my audience. Some have traveled a bit to be here and some are lucky enough to live in the city in which I am speaking. In either case, they all have their notebooks out, eager to write down whatever it is that strikes them as a little nugget of wisdom that has totally shifted their paradigm. It's that one thing that I am able to say in just the right way that sinks in this time. It seems very familiar, because they have heard something like it before, but just the right Apozitude version of it really makes sense and changes their perspective on life. Sometimes it's a small little shift that people will feel and other times it changes someone's life forever, in a way they never even knew was possible.

I have been to conferences that changed my perspective and then ultimately changed my life. I love the feeling of being alive and living in the moment. That is what Apozitude is about for me. Being right here, right now, and feeling the power of total awareness. I am aware that I can make a difference in my life by focusing on the positive. I am aware that awakening other people to this concept is my passion and that is the reason I. Am. Here!!! You are reading this blog post right now, so welcome to the launching pad of a little rocket called Apozitude. We are ready for take off.

I truly believe that in the end it all works out. I believe this dream of mine is becoming my reality and it just may start with you. If you know someone that would like to have an inspiration speaker for an upcoming event, let me know. I'd love the opportunity to speak publicly.

Better off for all that we let in

I am utterly and completely amazed when I actually take the time,... to watch.

the sun.

go.

down.


I am breathless at this moment as I sit in Newport Oregon watching the most beautiful setting of the sun I have ever seen, in this moment. We only have this moment.

Every single time I look up from my writing, there is a more and more beautiful canvas of a sky than there was just a moment ago. As the sun sets further and further, seemingly right down into the ocean, the sky becomes more and more dramatic. The water darkens and the white cap waves of the day are replaced by the black shadowy ones of the night. The sky becomes a more fiery blend of red, vibrant orange, deep smokey lavender and a range of blues that would drift you right off into dreamland.

The beauty of the earth is totally amazing. I saw a reflection of myself with the sky for a backdrop today in the eye of a horse. As I stood there petting him, I had a flash of a thought. Not even a conscious thought, more like a flash of slight exposure as one of my synapses fired. The fraction of a concept I was exposed to was that the horse and I shared a moment of reality together. Whether YOU believe it or not does not matter to me in the least, because I have faith that is exactly what happened.

To be in this wonderfully amazing place and not have a feeling of something bigger than ourselves in my opinion is a tragedy.

A very sad place to live for a heart, in the body of a man that does not truly see.

I am so grateful for the wide openness of my heart that I am able to let go, and lay myself down in a realm of complete vulnerability. I am confident that I will receive what I have given. I have nothing but love to truly give and we are better off for all that we let in.

Faith, like the ocean, always wins!!!

Unbending faith

I intend to write everyday. I accept where I am now and I know that the more I write the better I will get. I am tuned in to the divine energy. I allow that perfect creative energy to flow through me and in that I am certain.

I have unbending faith in my connection to divine energy. I am excited about the path I am on and enjoying the unfolding of my destiny.


I allow an ease of balance to be present in my life. There is plenty of room for the harmony, health and abundance to flow in all areas of my life.

It is my intention to maintain my healthy harmonious relationships personal and professional. It is my intention to maintain and continuously improve my physical and mental health. It is my intention to easily and continuously move forward in the direction of my destiny. I am an inspirational speaker. I am traveling more. I am happy in my job and I am passionate about my positive connections.